I didn’t write at all yesterday.
There’s a pink “W” marked on my calendar for yesterday, which means I was scheduled to Work. That means I should have focused on: Writing, editing, and administrative tasks. I did none of it. I failed.
I was a complete and total slug. Except for picking up groceries, I have no idea what I wasted the day doing besides playing a ridiculous amount of solitaire. I woke up in a lousy mood (in truth, my mood has not been great for days, but I managed to push past that until yesterday). Yesterday, I deviated from my schedule, let my mood take over, and accomplished nothing…except beating myself up all day long for not accomplishing anything. Sigh. It’s a vicious cycle.
I’m a big fan of Willpower Doesn’t Work by Benjamin Hardy and yesterday I totally disregarded all the lessons I’ve learned from it. (In a nutshell, your environment and your systems lend more to your success than relying on willpower.)
I went off the rails first thing. Here’s how my morning system is supposed to work:
Gratitude practice before I get out of bed
Drink 16 oz of water
Go for a walk
***no internet before word count for the day has been met
What I actually did yesterday:
Got on the internet (first misstep)
No walk (second misstep)
Then I was doomed….
Okay, not doomed, but I failed to get it together and the day was a waste. I didn’t relax…I just spent the whole day in conflict with myself.
Today there’s a blue “O” on my calendar. I’m supposed to have the day off. I’ve got a Zoom coffee date scheduled with a friend. Once that’s done, I need to write. I’m 2900 words behind on my word count goal…so that’s the goal for today, to catch up on that and to edit Friday’s words.
I’ll let you know how I do….